Note: Alyssa Harad is the author of Coming to My Senses: A Story of Perfume, Pleasure, and an Unlikely Bride, published in hardback last year. The new paperback edition comes out later this month. You can read our Q&A with Alyssa here, or read an excerpt from the book, The Tuberose of My Resistance. Also check out this video interview from Idaho Public Television, or just read through all her old posts on Now Smell This — she used to be a regular contributor here.
Well friends, it's been quite a year. When Robin first suggested I someday write a guest post about the move "from blog to book," I was living in the frenetic state of suspended animation common to new authors a month before publication. There were endless things to do, but none of them felt real. Every morning when I woke up, my palms tingled, a symptom I still haven't deciphered. Life was so uncertain that I slipped into perfume monogamy, reaching for the cheerful elegance of L'Artisan's Fleur d'Oranger over and over again.
My primary emotions were excitement, terror and gratitude. I was excited because the thing I had just spent nearly three years working on was about to make its way into the world. I was terrified for exactly the same reason.
Coming to My Senses is a true story, a portrait of people and communities I love. I wrote it hoping I could recreate for others the intensity of the pleasure I'd found, not just in perfume and its beauties, but the people and stories — a whole new way of life, really — that came along with it. One of my dearest wishes was that some day someone like me, maybe even one of you, would hand the book to a friend puzzled by all those bottles on the shelf and say, Here. This is what I'm talking about. I wrote it with your voices in my head.
But — this is where the terror came in — what if I'd gotten it wrong? What if I offended the people I meant to celebrate? (Or worse, bored them.) What if, by writing the book, I cut myself off from the communities that had made me want to write it in the first place?
To me, the biggest difference between writing a blog and writing a book is not the difficulty of the work, the size of the audience, or the quality of the story it's possible to tell, but the way the work gets done and how people read and respond to it.* When I wrote for Perfume Smellin' Things and Now Smell This I was part of a team, and my posts were part of an ongoing conversation. I wrote Coming to My Senses in long stretches of solitude punctuated by intense exchanges with a few select people.
By and large, that is how people read books, too: alone, page after page, stopping now and then to read a sentence aloud, or comment to a friend. But when they're done, they want to talk. And in the case of Coming to My Senses — here's where the gratitude comes in — many of them wanted to talk to me.
The first notes came months before the book was published. With my heart in my mouth, I'd sent the friends and family who were in the book advanced copies, including all my favorite bloggers, the ones who turned me into a fangirl in the first place. One by one, their warm, gracious notes arrived, and I began to think I might survive publication after all.
The next round came soon after the book was published. This time, the messages arrived in a huge wave — emails, messages on Facebook and Twitter, reviews, offers to help, even a few real live letters — lifting me up and carrying me forward. Overwhelming evidence of what I already knew: perfume people are the best.
And then, after a month or two had gone by, the notes began to come from strangers.
I heard from an enthusiastic librarian in a town of 473 people who wanted to tell me there was a waiting list of readers for my book. Though the book has only officially been published in the U.S. and Canada, I heard from a businesswoman in Australia who told me that after reading the book she made time to browse in the duty free shops and to visit the botanical gardens in the cities where she traveled. Then I heard from Denmark, Switzerland, France, Estonia, New Zealand and Croatia.
I heard from people who'd always loved perfume, and people who wanted to explore it, and people who promised not to complain about it anymore.
I heard from many people about the perfumes their mothers used to wear, and I helped a few of them find those perfumes again.
I heard from a whip-smart young feminist who had been struggling with the same embarrassment I'd felt over loving perfume, who taught me a few things I didn't know about what I'd said in my own book. I heard from a woman in her late 70's, living alone, who wrote to tell me that she liked to save up catalogues from Aedes de Venustas, and that her mother, who had died recently, wore my own mother's signature scent, Rochas Femme, and would I like to have the unfinished bottle? (I thanked her profusely, but thought she should keep it for herself.) The day after Christmas I heard from a woman who said that she'd read my book a chapter at a time, very late at night after her husband had gone to sleep, because that was the time she kept for herself and herself alone. I could see by the time signature on the email that she'd written to me then, too. And I felt my throat get tighten because I know those stolen middle-of-the-night hours. They're the same hours I used to stay up reading perfume blogs when I was pretending to be working on another freelance deadline.
Many other things happened to me this year in my new life as an author, but none of them felt as real or as important as these letters. The thing is, most days, I don't feel like an "author" at all. I still work alone, dressed like an unmade bed, full of uncertainty, terror, excitement and gratitude. (Though it's true, I often wear red lipstick now. And of course, I smell fantastic.) So it seemed important to tell you about a few of these people — to introduce you to a few of the invisible members of our far flung community who may never show up online. Now I'm writing with their voices in my head, too.
*I have never understood the snobbery some people have about books vs. blogs and I can get pretty cranky when confronted with it in person. There are two different animals with their own equal difficulties and possibilities. (I say this as a struggling blogger myself.) Wonderful writing can happen anywhere. Terrible writing can, too.
Please write us another book, sweet Alyssa!
And I agree, snobbery = idiocy.
I agree. And thank you, I am working on it!
Wonderful to see you back here, Alyssa! And lending your book to puzzled friends (and parents!) is a very common occurrence for me, so you have accomplished exactly what you set out to do.
Hooray! Thank you for telling me, that’s so great.
Alyssa, thank you for the lovely book! I so enjoyed reading it & smiling in recognition at some of the same reactions that I have had. I hope there’s another book from you soon.
Thank you, Kitty! I am working on something new, but “soon” is pretty slow in publishing terms. That’s another difference between books and blogging. Not to mention I am just slow in general. 🙂
I cannot wait to read your book. May I get it on my Kindle?? and Big congratulations to you on finishing and having your book published. Palms tingling means to me a sense of anticipation, like you can’t wait to get your hands on the day. Or from my bodyworker’s thinking space, perhaps tight forearms, and chest. And if you sleep with your arms over your head or externally rotated under your head or curled up tight close to your chest, your palms could tingle from either of those positions.
Yes! It is available on Kindle and all the other e-formats.
It’s so interesting to have your bodyworker perspective on the tingling palms. It felt more like anxiety than anticipation, but those two are often hard to tell apart for me. 🙂
Alyssa,glad to have you back on NST. I am looking forward to your new book very much.
Thank you! It will be awhile, but I’ll keep everyone posted.
I loved the book–so glad to hear you’re working on another!
Thank you, Janice!
The book is wonderful. I found myself just shaking my head yes to line after line because there was so much I could relate to. I look forward to another book and I’m glad to see a post from you here.
Thank you, dear poodle!
Alyssa, thanks for a wonderful post; nice to see you here again. I loved the book, and I read it just as you described – stopping to read out bits to my DH after he heard me laughing about something and wanted to be let in on the joke. I look forward to further adventures in your next book!
I will always remember meeting you at the Spring 2012 Sniffa and blurting out, after we had introduced ourselves, “Oh, you’re *that* Alyssa!” 🙂 I’m going to start campaigning to get you out here for a reading at our local independent bookstore, which I have to give a shout-out to: Brookline Booksmith! Still going strong, yay!
Thank you so much, Anne! It was delightful to meet you, too. You know I so often don’t really feel like “that Alyssa” myself–it’s always a surprise when I run into someone who knows me from the book, even at Sniffa. 🙂
Thank you for campaigning! The new paperback is a second chance to get the book into stores and I’m currently planning a little West Coast tour. I’ll be in D.C. later in the year and would love to come to Boston/Brookline!
Hi, Alyssa — I’m a fan, too. How/when will we know what date(s) you’ll be in DC? Don’t want to miss that!
Hello! I am hoping to visit D.C. this coming spring. You can get updates about events and anything else I’m up to by following my author page on FB, subscribing to my blog (alyssaharad dot com) or following me on Twitter. In other words I’m everywhere. (Though people keep telling me to join Pinterest, Tumblr, Red Room and half a dozen other sites, too. I can’t keep up.)
P.S. Your avatar is adorable.
Might your little West Coast tour venture up to Vancouver? Chapters occasionally hosts author readings, or perhaps something in conjunction with Ayala?
I truly enjoyed your book — with laughter, tears and sometimes rueful recognition. And yes, it’s perfect to pass on to quizzical friends.
Thank you Linda! I don’t think I’m going to make it to Vancouver this summer, but I love that city (and Victoria!) and haven’t visited in a long time. I’ll try to come another time.
I enjoyed your book so much, Alyssa! I have at least samples of most of the perfumes you mentioned in your book (or later in the blog), so I made reading it a multimedia experience. 🙂 I’m so happy for you in finding your calling and very much looking forward to whatever you publish next.
Thank you so much, Noz! That’s so fantastic that you’re able to “sniff along.” I need to get my act together and update the website so it’s easier to see what all the perfumes are. Very soon.
Good to see you back on NST, and I like your report of your far-flung audience very much. Perfume people ARE the best, but perhaps you don’t realize how much you’ve done to bring them together more as a community. Nicely done, madam.
(Also, even as an unmade bed I suspect you look great, in addition to, as we know, smelling fantastic.)
Awww! Thanks for the compliment! I love thinking that I’ve helped contribute to the community building in some way. Lots of readers mention to me that they are now reading the blogs. It’s so nice that people have a place they can go to extend their experience of the book.
It is a wonderful book and it has intrigued and delighted and brought people together to talk about perfume and pleasure and memory and community.
I fell in love with Rochas Femme at about the same time as I read your book. Actually I had a ghastly cold at the time that killed my sense of smell completely for about 10 agonising days. But it was just coming back, and I was just getting acquainted with Femme, at about the time that i read your chapter about Femme having been your mother’s scent. So now, both you and your mother are part of MY story too. How amazing that that elderly lady offered you her mother’s last bottle of Femme! I have my mother’s last bottle of April Violets but I can’t imagine giving it away.
There is something about Femme that clutches at the heart, even in the modern version (which I love). Sometimes I dream of learning all the stories of the women who have worn Femme. They would be a bunch of strong, brave, kind women. Or am I being over romantic? Ah well, perfume is about dreams.
Oh, Anne, I love that story about your coming to Femme, thank you for telling me. I don’t know if all the women who love Femme would be strong and brave, but I love the idea of telling a story–or a film, even– beginning with the creation of the perfume and then one woman after another who wears it. What a great thread that would be…
So it would, starting with Helene Rochas herself, for whom the perfume was originally made, apparently. She was a formidable woman, by all accounts.
Wonderful post, Alyssa! I really enjoyed reading about the reactions that you got after your book was published. Very poignant and well-put. Thank you for the beautiful thoughts to consider this afternoon.
I’m so glad you enjoyed it, Daisy.
Congrats on the paperback edition!
Coming To My Sense is a wonderful book and I’m excited for you for such a great accomplishment. Hope many people will find new appreciation for perfume after reading it.
Thank you, Ayala!
You write so beautifully, Alyssa. I loved every single nook page of Coming to My Senses. Congratulations on the paperback edition and I hope to see more of you on NST!
Thank you! That phrase “nook page” is so cute. I will have to remember it.
I loved this post, Alyssa – a perfect insight into the internal monologue of the writer setting one’s baby book off into the big bad world.
Thank you, Katie! I know you understand something about that anxiety. Can’t even imagine putting myself out there on television.
Alyssa, I am very happy that you are back! I bought your book the moment it came out but so many things have been going on in my life lately that I haven’t had time to start it. I am looking forward to reading it now as summer approaches. Keep doing what you do best–writing and blogging–and please keep wearing the red lipstick. (I don’t have to say keep smelling fantastic because I know that’s a no-brainer!)
Thank you, Filomena! I will put on some red writing lipstick this morning in your honor.